Lay My Burden Down: A Mike and Chuck Relationship FST
(cover by my good friend blu)
I can’t go anywhere without feeling strange// I can’t see anyone// everything has changed// Cause every time I close my eyes // it’s you again, you again // and every time I hear your voice// I don’t know what to do with myself
Life, it’s ever so strange // It’s so full of change // Think that you’ve worked it out // Then BANG // Right out of the blue // Something happens to you // To throw you off course // And then you // Breakdown // Yeah you breakdown // … // Slowly, oh so very slowly // Accept that there’s no getting off// So live it, just gotta go with it// Coz this ride’s, never gonna stop
You are the lighthouse, the seamark // the tempests created this tide // I’m pulled to the black silver ocean // where the current and the heavens collide // … // You are the navigator who never could lead // we were lost in the silver sea // I was the ship who was too proud to ever sink // … // My image is slipping // but your memory is gripping it // this is my breath in your lungs
Pour myself a cup of coffee full of sober nights // Cos nicotine and coffee are my friends in this fight // And you, you keep me warm // You, you keep me warm // All your cigarettes and cup of coffee // It keeps me warm // Believe me I can play games cos I know all the rules //Believe me I can pretend cos I’ve studied the masks // But I don’t wanna play any theatre for you // I don’t wanna stage a single piece for you
I’m looking for a place to start // But everything feels so different now // Just grab a hold of my hand // I will lead you through this wonderland // Water up to my knees // But sharks are swimming in the sea // Just follow my yellow light // And ignore all those big warning signs
Since you lay my burdens down // All the troubles I been // Dragging down this trail // Seep into the thirsty ground // Since you turned your light // Upon my darkened dale // The pollinators flex their wings // And take into the air // Spin their emeraldine //Webs across the swales and prairies // And my stampeding buffalo // Stops in her tracks and watches the snow // Falling through the old oak tree // When you give your heart to me
In the mornings // I was anxious // It’s better just to stay in bed // Didn’t want to fail myself again // Running through all the options // And the endings // Were rolling out in front of me // But I couldn’t choose a thread to begin // And I could not love // Coz I could not love myself // Never good enough, no // That was all I’d tell myself // And I was not well // But I could not help myself //I was giving up on living // And you gave me love // When I could not love myself //And you made me turn from the way I saw myself // And you’re patient, love // And you help me help myself //And you save me
There is something wrong, and there is something right// When you can take me by hands and I will close my eyes // When you laid down with me, you took the other side // When you laid down with me, you never slept that night // Are you working up to something? But you give me almost nothing // Keep me helpless up to something on my knees // Would you ever be my, would you be my fucking boyfriend?
OK GOD this fst has been in the works for awhile but i kept working on it off and on and being super embarrassed about it horribly and not really sure where to go!! SO basically i made fanfic through song because hahahAHA. The story is basically the boys realizing how dokis they are for each other (and handling it in their own ways) and the stages of their relationship. it’s pretty simple but yeah!!! Just another super mellow indie mix from jo. And thank you blu again for the lovely cover!
fixed the download link!!!
(via bluandorange)Source: howlwehscreamweh